I don’t go out much. Most days I am perfectly happy being a hermit and avoiding public places all together. Put one too many people in a room and I will be clawing the walls trying to find the nearest exit.
Yes, I do take medication for anxiety to help me get though the day-to-day stuff so I can function as close to normal as possible, because I actually LIKE being around other people. I like being social most of the time. As long as they don’t invade my personal space. Then I freak. Concerts, parties, malls and anywhere else that is remotely crowded are to be avoided at all costs.
Much of the time I am contented hermit. 90% of my free time is spent doing solitary activities.
- watching movies/TV shows
Spending time with friends and family is easy for me to cope with most of the time because I feel safe when I am around these people.
When I was invited to see Flogging Molly on last Saturday at the Cosmopolitan, I couldn’t say no. I love me some Flogging Molly. If you haven’t heard of this Irish band before, they are worth a listen.
But I was dreading having a panic attack at the concert. The fear that comes from anticipating an attack is sometimes worse than actually experiencing one. I new the rooftop concert area was going to be crowded, I just didn’t anticipate how much.
Thankfully my friends are awesome and dragged me to the very back area where it was much less crowded and I felt like I could breath. And they stayed with me! No one minded that we had to watch the concert on the jumbo screen because being that far back the stage is almost microscopic. I people watch and enjoy the music.
The evening went from total nightmare to awesome. 🙂
Friends who understand and accept your flaws and quirks and are STILL willing to go out in public with you are the best friends ever. They don’t judge or complain when I say I can’t go out and fully support me we I try to face my fears.